My First.. Blog

I’ve been meaning to start my blog for months. So, today, amidst a lazy summer day and the sudden urge not to go to my summer class, I began to write.

This is a mere intro for what I hope is to come.

Enjoy :)


This is my last year of college before life starts-- I mean really starts. Not to say that I haven’t been living. I’ve had a good run here in San Diego— but I say life is starting to mean there will be no more protection from the institution that is the university, no more buffer to put a wedge between college and the real world, no more splashing in the kiddie pool—it’ll be a full on dive into the deep end. *gulp*



I’m scared (more like terrified), but hopeful.

I’m looking forward to what the other side has to offer, the obstacles I will have to overcome, and the decisions (soooo many decisions) I will make that will continue to shape my life. I’m interested in seeing which friends—of whom I hold so dear— will still be in my life. And I can’t wait to see where my family—whom I hold dear-er— will be.

All that said, this is also the first times in my life where there is no one map, no one plan.* There are many variations of what could be (this is where the terror comes in), but that’s just too many what ifs for my liking (this is where the stress comes in).

Talk about stressful!!

This past year has been tough or extremely stressful, if you will. It was probably one of the toughest years in my 22 years of life. Nothing detrimental happened to me, family or friends—this, I thank God and am grateful for. This past year I’ve been dealing with a struggle/resistance that is internal (things I may discuss in later entries). These things put so much weight upon me that it translated over to my school work, my social life, and to my overall being. I was falling fast and hard.

Slowly, but surely, I’m getting up. Overcoming these things won’t be easy, because that, in turn, equates to working on and changing myself for the better—something I’m continually working on.

Whew! **

Alright, enough of that.

I’m looking forward to what the future has to hold, but until then I will be living this last year of the said “pre life” that is college!

Cue Music: J Cole – Can I live





*Hence Robert Frost’s, 'The Road Not Taken' poem as the background of my twitter page. I was going through! Lol

** I rarely talk about me. Some of my closest friends didn’t even know that.